swimspiration

the bravest idiot i know

the bravest idiot i know

my father has an age old saying that i’ve honestly heard more times than i care to count. “it can’t always be them, xan. sometimes, it has to be you.” every time he’s ever said it to me in the past, i’ve wished for the courage to sock him in the nose. largely, because he […]

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because i love myself enough to swim

because i love myself enough to swim

i have been trapped in one of those horror movies where there’s only one character: me – and i’m doing all the terrorizing. it’s been rough to say the least. eight days ago, the merman went away on business leaving me and lil’ flipper on our own. we had a fun week planned swimming, science […]

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your energy is finite. only use it for the betterment of you and others.

- mermaid

today’s mantra: always be yourself. unless you can be a mermaid. then, be a mermaid.

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it's only when everything goes wrong that we're free to see how truly good we have it.

- mermaid

every time i walk into my closet, i have a fear attack.

every time i walk into my closet, i have a fear attack.

something weird keeps happening to me. every time i walk into my closet, i have a fear attack. not a panic attack. a fear attack. i am suddenly paralyzed by fear. in an effort to invest in myself and this new “me,” i removed all the plus-size stuff out of my closet and got rid […]

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today’s mantra: anything a bully says is white noise.

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i am a bit of a spoiled princess. i admit it

i am a bit of a spoiled princess. i admit it

i’m super grateful for the bully that called me “disabled” at the y. i know what you’re thinking, “what? really? thankful for a hateful bully?” yes. you better believe i am grateful for her, because her hate speak taught me an invaluable lesson. i am a bit of a spoiled princess. i admit it. i […]

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thank you for the love and messages

thank you for the love and messages

i have received dozens of special notes from friends new and old, family and total strangers thanking me for sharing my story, and letting me know i was inspiring them on their own journeys to heath and wellness. i just wanted to say how deeply flattered i am because i’m just doing my thing, you […]

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real warriors know when to wait and when to pounce.

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Change Takes Time

Change Takes Time

we buy the giant minced garlic at our house because i love it in an unreasonable abundance, and now via stockholm syndrome, so does my family. when a recipe calls for 1 minced glove of garlic, i wave my hand like ‘pishaw!” and say, “sissies! it’s at least 5 cloves.” what can i say? i […]

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Ready for Swim

Ready for Swim

the rice cooker for oatmeal is working. my and my boy’s suit and towels all ready for my morning swim workout / lesson for lil’ flipper. just enough time left for morning yoga to get us limber for the day and to slice up some cantaloupe for a post workout snack. can’t wait to ‪#‎swim‬!

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today’s mantra: there is no yesterday, just today – own it.

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